I don't usually post on the weekend, but this is special circumstances. I went to a fashion show I didn't want to go to. I only went to support my friends. One was singing and the other did the make up for the show. Well in watching this fashion show, I was hit with a "light bulb" moment. Ok, I see you trying to do something positive with your life, but you need to try harder.
At first, that sentiment was in reference to the fashion show and the people that put it together. They were an hour late starting and the fashions were questionable. But then I turned that all on me. I'm trying to be a writer and get myself together, but I just realized I'm not trying hard enough. I write when I get the time. It shouldn't be that way. This is supposed to be my passion. When you have a passion for something, it should consume your thoughts. Writing does, but not all of my thoughts. Which is a problem.
If this is my calling, and I feel it is, I should be practicing every day. Just as those girls spent time on their fashions every day. In a sense, their way ahead of me when it comes to reaching the finish line because they had a show and planning their second in four months. I've gotten one piece published. Not a second or third. So I thank those girls for their low budget fashion show. Even though that sounds like I'm being an asshole, I meant that with total sincerity. It made reevaluate myself and my work ethic. I'm trying. I just need to try harder!
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